everyones killing themselves
just to stay alive
we have every thing we need
but we’re still deprived
generations of fucked up kids
running the earth
getting dumber and dumber
its like were cursed
people hurting them selves
in the silence
people excelling in school
but suck at science
we all know our speech
but don’t know how to speak
we know it’s wrong
but still sneak a peek
no one has jobs
they rely on their parents
and then wonder why
homelessness is becoming apparent
mental illness is skyrocketing
everyone wants to be dead
and people are targeting children
like you wouldn’t comprehend
but everything’s happy
everything’s fine
its not like were living
wretched and divine

Welp. It’s the end of the year. I won’t lie and get all mopey ad act like I’m going to miss this class. I got nothing from it. I decided about a week in that this isn’t what I wanted for a class. I’m not a writer. I’m not creative. I don’t know; I will miss the people in the class though because Michael especially is staying here at Blackman meanwhile I’m going to Rockvale, so that sucks I guess. I really don’t know what to put here. I honestly don’t really care. I have a hard time finding things to write about, so when I have to do it for a grade, all that’s doing i setting me up to fail. I have a hard time finding inspiration, especially in today’s age because some of my main inspirations are people like Donald Trump and Elon Musk. And people don’t care about stupid little things like how by 2024 we’ll be sending people to mars, or how someone like Trump became successful. My interests are very different than even most of m friends, and if people don’t like you or something you like, everyone around them will then dislike you as well.I can talk about how I hate this school. but then I’d get in trouble with teachers and principals. I can’t talk about music because everyone listens to rap or country, but I listen to heavy metal and heavy/emo core rap. Very few people like my type of music. So going back to the beginning of my farewell, I will not miss this class. I have a hard time talking to people too, I always get misinterpreted and misunderstood. That’s why I’d always only talk to Michael and Jeremiah, or usually just stay on my phone away fro everyone. I can’t relate to people at all either, that’s why I wouldn’t play the games you guys did a well. I didn’t see a point. and here’s another problem, I have no patience or focus. I’m only saying this because I’ve already run out of stuff to write. Meanwhile I see other people’s that are paragraphs and paragraphs long, and I struggle to even write more than 20 sentences. At least I tried creative writing. Farewell.

Edit: I started writing this angrily because I was told I put minimal effort into the things I do, but I thought about it, and it’s really true. I’ve always been like this I guess. So, I’ll keep it in mind and try to work on it as I grow

I can’t wait to go to Rockvale. The atmosphere, and people here at Blackman are toxic as hell. There was only 2 teachers I can honestly say I liked, and principal Reed likes to try to put words in my mouth every time I see him. Plus I’ll get to have all my friends back in one place, well not all, but the majourity. I’d usually get emotional over it being the end of the school year, but I can honestly say that Blckman High is the worst school I’ve ever been to from the JROTC program, to the people, to the sports, and I use to live in a place where they had to have classes outside in the snow bc they couldn’t afford classrooms, and kids would sell drugs and teachers would too and etc. I’ll miss the friends I’ll be leaving behind here though , I truly wish them the best. But hey, life goes on I guess, if they’re my true friends, I’ll see them agaiI honestly don’t know what to write about.

Thor becomes fat

captain america wields Thor’s hammer

hulk and iron man wield the infinity gauntlet

Iron Man dies as a result or wielding the gauntlet

Thor leaves the avengers and joins the guardians of the galaxy

Gamora from an alternate dimension joins the guardians of the galaxy

Captain America goes back in time and lives a whole life and comes back an old man, and gives his sheild to Falcon

black widow dies

Iron man dies

Thanos dies

original Gamora stays dead

vision stays dead

^ENDGAME SPOILERS^

• Monday, 5/20/19

1. Regular day

• Tuesday, 5/21/19

1. 1st period exam <8:30-10:00>
2. “adjusted schedule”

• Wednesday, 5/22/19

1. 2nd period exam <8:30-10:00>
2. class change <10:00-10:05>
3. 3rd period exam <10:05-11:35>
4. Dismissal w/ permit ¹ <11:35>
5. Lunch <11:45-1:00>
6. class change <1:00-1:07>
7. 4th period study/review <1:07-2:15>
8. class change <2:15-2:22>
9. 5th period study/review <2:22-3:30>

• Thursday, 5/23/19

1. 4th period exam <8:30-10:00>
2. class change <10:00-10:05>
3. 5th period exam <10:05-11:35>
4. Dismissal w/ permit <11:35>
5. Lunch <11:45-1:00>
6. class change <1:00-1:07>
7. 6th period study/review <1:07-2:15>
8. class change <2:15-2:22>
9. 7th period study/review <2:22-3:30>

• Friday ², 5/24/19

1. 6th period exam <8:30-10:00>
2. class change <10:00-10:05>
3. 7th period exam <10:05-11:35>
4. Dismissal w/ permit <11:35>
5. Lunch <12:00-1:00>
6. All remaining students report to cafeteria <1:07-3:30>

********************

¹ Permit = permission to leave

² Last day to turn in $1 to have report card mailed to you

Bright yellow like the sun’s rays in a 1st grader’s art depiction of so

long and slender like a miniature baseball bat.

I’m here to teach you how to eat that majestic piece of sweet material.

1. Grab the delicious crescent moon shaped piece of golden fruit.
2. point wither end towards the sky; however, do not raise it above your head.
3. pull on it towards any one of the sides, and keep pulling
4. when the delicious carpet textured rod of sweetness is showing, bite into it!
5. Don’t forget to chew and swallow as you would with any other food
6. pull the peel down more, and repeat step 5
7. repeat steps 5-6 until the banana is gone
8. (eating the peel is optional, do at your own risk)
9. If you didn’t eat the peel, throw it away.
10. that’s all folks, enjoy eating the amazing and magical fruit known as a banana

update: I woke up again

𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦 𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳

• • “𝓢𝓽𝓸𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓼 𝓪𝓵𝔀𝓪𝔂𝓼 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓹𝔂 𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼. 𝓑𝓾𝓽 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓵 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓲𝓼𝓷’𝓽 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽.”

-𝔸𝕝𝕚𝕔𝕖 (𝔻𝕖𝕥𝕣𝕠𝕚𝕥: 𝔹𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕞𝕖 ℍ𝕦𝕞𝕒𝕟)

• • “𝓓𝓸𝓷’𝓽 𝓬𝓻𝔂 𝓫𝓮𝓬𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝓲𝓽’𝓼 𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻. 𝓢𝓶𝓲𝓵𝓮 𝓫𝓮𝓬𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝓲𝓽 𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓹𝓮𝓷𝓮𝓭.”

-𝔻𝕣. 𝕊𝕖𝕦𝕤𝕤

• • “𝓦𝓱𝓮𝓷𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓯𝓲𝓷𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓼𝓮𝓵𝓯 𝓸𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓼𝓲𝓭𝓮 𝓸𝓯 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓶𝓪𝓳𝓸𝓻𝓲𝓽𝔂, 𝓲𝓽 𝓲𝓼 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓹𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓻𝓮𝓯𝓵𝓮𝓬𝓽.”

-𝕄𝕒𝕣𝕜 𝕋𝕨𝕒𝕚𝕟

• • “𝓑𝓻𝓾𝓽𝓮 𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓬𝓮 𝓬𝓪𝓷 𝓼𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮𝓼 𝓴𝓲𝓬𝓴 𝓭𝓸𝔀𝓷 𝓪 𝓵𝓸𝓬𝓴𝓮𝓭 𝓭𝓸𝓸𝓻, 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀𝓵𝓮𝓭𝓰𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓪 𝓼𝓴𝓮𝓵𝓮𝓽𝓸𝓷 𝓴𝓮𝔂.”

-𝕁𝕒𝕔𝕖’𝕤 𝕀𝕟𝕘𝕖𝕟𝕦𝕚𝕥𝕪 (𝕄𝕋𝔾 𝕋ℂ𝔾)

• • “𝓦𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓭𝓸 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓶𝓸𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 𝓲𝓷 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓲𝓷 𝓪𝓷 𝓾𝓷𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓶𝓸𝓷 𝔀𝓪𝔂, 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓶𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓪𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷 𝓸𝓯 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓵𝓭.”

-𝔾𝕖𝕠𝕣𝕘𝕖 𝕎𝕒𝕤𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕥𝕠𝕟 ℂ𝕒𝕣𝕧𝕖𝕣 

• • ” ‘𝓒𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂𝓫𝓸𝓭𝔂’𝓼 𝓸𝓷 𝓭𝓻𝓾𝓰𝓼 𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓐𝓶𝓮𝓻𝓲𝓬𝓪𝓷 𝓭𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓶 𝓲𝓼 𝓪 𝓴𝓲𝓵𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓶𝓪𝓬𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓮 𝓔𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂𝓫𝓸𝓭𝔂’𝓼 𝓸𝓷 𝓭𝓻𝓾𝓰𝓼 𝓘𝓯 𝓲𝓽’𝓼 𝓴𝓲𝓵𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓘𝓽’𝓼 𝓼𝓸 𝓯𝓾𝓬𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓾𝓷𝓫𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓮𝓿𝓪𝓫𝓵𝓮 𝓦𝓮’𝓻𝓮 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓼𝓸 𝓶𝓾𝓬𝓱 𝓯𝓾𝓷, 𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓭𝓸𝔀𝓷 𝓪 𝓵𝓸𝓪𝓭𝓮𝓭 𝓰𝓾𝓷 𝓐𝓷𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓭𝓸𝓷’𝓽 𝓼𝓮𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓲𝓽’𝓼 𝓴𝓲𝓵𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔂𝓸𝓾”

-𝔽𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕀𝕟 ℝ𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕖

• • “𝓓𝓸𝓷’𝓽 𝓫𝓮 𝓪 𝓼𝓪𝓵𝓪𝓭. 𝓑𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓮𝓼𝓽 𝓰𝓸𝓭 𝓭𝓪𝓶𝓷 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓬𝓬𝓸𝓵𝓲 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓬𝓪𝓷 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓫𝓮.”

-ℙ𝕖𝕨𝕕𝕚𝕖𝕡𝕚𝕖

• • “𝓢𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮𝓼 𝓘 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓵 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓽𝓸𝓸 𝓶𝓪𝓷𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 𝔀𝓮𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓸𝓷 𝓶𝔂 𝓶𝓲𝓷𝓭 𝓪𝓽 𝓸𝓷𝓬𝓮, 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓘 𝓬𝓪𝓷’𝓽 𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓽𝓻𝓸𝓵 𝓶𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱𝓽𝓼 𝓸𝓻 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓶𝔂 𝓫𝓸𝓭𝔂 𝓪𝓽 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮𝓼”

-ℙ𝕚𝕖𝕣𝕔𝕖 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕍𝕖𝕚𝕝

• • “𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓼𝓪𝓭𝓭𝓮𝓼𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓪𝓫𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝓻𝓪𝔂𝓪𝓵 𝓲𝓼 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓲𝓽 𝓷𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓼 𝓯𝓻𝓸𝓶 𝓮𝓷𝓮𝓶𝓲𝓮𝓼, 𝓲𝓽 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓼 𝓯𝓻𝓸𝓶 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓼𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓽𝓻𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓶𝓸𝓼𝓽.”

-𝕏𝕏𝕏𝕋𝔼ℕ𝕋𝔸ℂ𝕀𝕆ℕ

• • “𝓲𝓽 𝓲𝓼 𝓹𝓸𝓼𝓼𝓲𝓫𝓵𝓮 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓸𝓻𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓪𝓻𝔂 𝓹𝓮𝓸𝓹𝓵𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓬𝓱𝓸𝓸𝓼𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓮𝔁𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓸𝓻𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓪𝓻𝔂”

-𝔼𝕝𝕠𝕟 𝕄𝕦𝕤𝕜

Don't say one more thing
trust me we're all dead
there's no need for the pain
so let's just go to bed
and though our clocks tick on
I'll stay up till the night is gone
you said there will be no end
to you and I
but you left me here
just to cry
I've lost my touch
to see the same shade of green in the grass
but the pain you etched in my core left a scar
I may look like steel but I'll shatter like glass
we all miss the lives we used to have
but none of us would go back
it's like lost faith and lost souls that want change
like when you chase dreams but you're really on a track
you run round and round
with no end to the pain
then next thing you know you fall down
and it starts to rain

A life full of maybe eventually’s

no one I know knows how to talk to another

growing up in a generation that can’t tell

their AB3’s from their 12C’s

living life behind a phone screen

is it night or is it day

I’ll stay up anyway

Everyone hates their past

but would go back given the chance

why’s that?

we’re raised to follow broken dreams

losing track of what life means

parents that can’t parent

and teachers that cant teach

blame it on the kids

and give them a little treat

I’ve chased every rainbow

wished on every shooting star

ruined fields of dandelions

all for what? for hope? We’re hopeless, helpless, selfish

all the pain we’ve dished

just to make a wish

wishing we could die but live forever

do I wanna die or live forever?